I’m on a major “personal discovery” kick right now. I’ve been attending webinars left and right and reading everything I can get my hands on relating to happiness, living the life you were meant to, etc. In one respect, it’s encouraging and motivating, but in another it is completely exhausting and frustrating.
I really want to leave this job. I probably shouldn’t even write about this on my blog, in case a potential employer reads it, but it’s true. After 6 years here (good God!), I really feel like I can’t take anymore. People aren’t supposed to live a huge part of their waking lives in an environment that stifles creativity, discourages connections and makes you feel like crap. I just can’t believe that’s how it should be. I had an interview at a company that seems cool, but I don’t think I can swing the huge pay cut =/
A lot of the webinars I’ve been watching/hearing are by successful solo-preneurs, which makes me wonder if I could do that. Even if I was still an administrative assistant (in the form of a virtual assistant), it would have to be better than here, right? I mean, I like my own company (most of the time). Plus, I would get to choose which services I offered. I could make more use of my design skills. But, and this is a big but, I have bills that need to be paid, so I can’t just take a leap of faith and hope it works out.
One of the solo-preneurs is offering a year-long mentoring program with step-by-step information to get your business up and running, including help with getting clients, etc., but can I do it? I would have to commit to doing it and I am terrible at decision making. I’m so used to having people tell me what I can/cannot or should/should not do, I don’t really know how to take a chance anymore. Kind of a sad thing to admit when you’re 31 years old.
Over and out,